4/20 - 4

by SPIKE

4/20 - 4

SPIKE
I DON'T SLEEP. SHIT'S OVERRATED ANYWAY. EVERYONE KNOWS YOUR BEST MATERIAL COMES OUT WHEN YOU'RE HIGH, SLEEP-DEPRIVED, OR ON THE EDGE OF A MENTAL BREAKDOWN.

WRITING WHILE HIGH IS HIT-OR-MISS FOR ME. COMING UP WITH A PREMISE IS PRETTY MUCH IMPOSSIBLE, BUT IF I ALREADY HAD A COUPLE OF LINES DOWN, THE REST COMES OUT LIKE CRAZY. I WROTE THE TRIPPIEST SCENE IN JUST ONE HOUR, NEARLY 1500 WORDS WHICH IS INSANELY FAST FOR ME, IMMEDIATELY FORGOT EVERYTHING ABOUT IT, AND PROOFED IT WHEN I WAS SOBER.

IT WAS KIND OF COHERENT BUT I HAD TO GO BACK IN AND ADD A BUNCH OF COMMENTS SO I WOULDN'T FORGET WHAT ALL THE METAPHORS AND SHIT MEANT. PLUS ALL THE MISSING TRANSITIONS, BECAUSE MY HEAD LIKES TO SKIP AHEAD THROUGH CHAINS OF THINGS AND IT'S A HELL OF A LOT WORSE WHEN I'M HIGH. I'M PROBABLY DOING IT RIGHT NOW AND I DON'T EVEN REALIZE IT. NOT THAT I'M HIGH RIGHT NOW, IT'S JUST, Y'KNOW, THE NOT-SLEEPING THING. YOU DO WHAT YOU GOTTA FOR YOUR CRAFT I GUESS.

ANYWAY, THE WORD COUNT OF THE COMMENTS I PUT IN IS PROBABLY LONGER THAN THE SCENE ITSELF. IT WAS A CHARACTER STUDY BETWEEN SPEEDY AND SOME ASSHOLE YOU GUYS HAVEN'T MET YET, AND THE THING ABOUT THIS PARTICULAR ASSHOLE IS THAT HE DISAGREES WITH SPEEDY ON SUCH A FUNDAMENTAL LEVEL THAT ALL OF THE INTERACTIONS BETWEEN THEM FEEL STRANGELY REVEALING.

OH YEAH, ON THE NOT-SLEEPING THING, I'VE NEVER TOLD ANYONE THIS, BUT I DON'T THINK ANYONE READS THIS BLOG ANYWAY, SO WHATEVER. I'M A WRITER MORE THAN A COMIC ARTIST. I'VE WRITTEN, WELL, A SHIT TON. NEVER SHOWED MOST OF IT TO ANYONE. (MANY THANKS TO MY FRIENDS WHO DO PROOF MY SHIT FROM TIME TO TIME.) THE ONE THING I'VE GOTTEN PUBLISHED IS THIS SURREAL SHORT STORY I SUBMITTED 'CAUSE SOMEONE MENTIONED A ZINE THAT WAS TAKING SUBMISSIONS. REALLY WASN'T EXPECTING ANYTHING, IT WAS JUST ONE OF THE ONLY THINGS I'D WRITTEN THAT DIDN'T FEATURE ANY OF THE CHARACTERS I WRITE ABOUT. SO I FIGURED, WHY NOT, WHAT THE HELL. AND YEAH, THE EDITORS LIKED IT, AND POSTED IT ON MY SITE, AND I GOT SOME NICE WORDS FROM PEOPLE WHO READ IT. I GUESS I'LL GIVE THE LINK TO ANYONE WHO WANTS IT. NONE OF THIS IS THE THING I HAVEN'T TOLD ANYONE, 'CAUSE BELIEVE ME, I TOLD A LOT OF PEOPLE THAT I HAD GOTTEN ONE OF MY SHORTS PUBLISHED. THE THING I NEVER TOLD ANYONE IS THAT I THREW IT TOGETHER IN ONE HOUR (11 PM TO MIDNIGHT, I BELIEVE), GLANCED OVER IT ONCE FOR GRAMMAR/SPELLING MISTAKES, AND THEN SENT IT OFF. YEAH. I DUNNO, PART OF ME THINKS THAT I OUGHT TO BE BETTER ABOUT PLANNING THINGS, REVISING, POLISHING STUFF UP. HELL, EVEN WITH THIS COMIC, I DON'T REVISE A LOT OF THINGS. I'VE THROWN DOWN LOTS OF IDEAS, AND I KNOW SOME OF THE BEATS I WANT TO HIT, BUT I'M JUST FEELING IT THROUGH. THAT'S HOW I WRITE THINGS AND MAYBE THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT, BUT I DO SEE PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT THEIR THOROUGH PROCESSES AND THINK, WELL, THE WAY I WORK IS NOTHING LIKE THAT. CAN I REALLY SAY THAT I DON'T PLAN THINGS OR POLISH MY STORIES UP? HONESTLY, NO. EVERYTHING'S BREWING IN MY HEAD FOR SO LONG THAT BY THE TIME IT COMES OUT, IT'S ALREADY BEEN MENTALLY REVISED A HUNDRED TIMES. I KNOW SPEEDY AND DARBY. I'VE BEEN WORKING WITH THEM FOR YEARS NOW--THIS COMIC IS CLOSE TO NEW, BUT MY WHOLE-ASS NOVEL (THAT YOU CAN'T READ, BECAUSE IRONICALLY, I'M STILL POLISHING IT) IS NOT. I FEEL LIKE WHEN YOU WORK WITH SOMETHING FOR LONG ENOUGH, IT BECOMES MORE OF A GUT PROCESS THAN A HEAD PROCESS. AT LEAST THAT'S HOW IT IS FOR ME.

I GOT DERAILED. I WAS TALKING ABOUT WRITING WHILE ON DRUGS AND SHIT. THE SCENE I WAS TALKING ABOUT REALLY PEELED THEM APART. I DON'T DO METAPHORS A WHOLE LOT 'CAUSE I LIKE BEING STRAIGHTFORWARD. CAN YOU BE VAGUE AND STRAIGHTFORWARD AT THE SAME TIME? WHATEVER. I BET SOMEONE WILL BE ABLE TO READ ALL THIS SHIT I'M SAYING ABOUT MYSELF AND PROVE ME WRONG ON EVERY COUNT. THAT'S WHY I DON'T SAY SO MUCH ABOUT MYSELF. WHEN YOU'RE VAGUE AND STRAIGHTFORWARD AT THE SAME TIME, YOU'RE ALWAYS WRONG.